Nicole Kidman has publicly addressed her divorce from Keith Urban for the first time since their marriage ended in January, describing the experience as emotionally challenging and uncertain. In an interview with British Vogue, the 59-year-old actress revealed she felt 'very fearful and deeply vulnerable' during the transition, comparing it to 'free falling' as she navigated an unfamiliar chapter in her life.
Kidman, who filed for divorce from Urban in September 2023, confirmed the split was finalized in January with irreconcilable differences cited. The agreement named her as the primary residential parent of their two daughters, Sunday, 18, and Faith, 15, while both parties agreed to make major decisions regarding the children jointly. Neither spouse sought spousal support, and both waived their right to appear at the divorce hearing.
Reflecting on her approach to life and relationships, Kidman emphasized her 'feelings-first' philosophy, stating she does not overanalyze decisions and instead leads with her heart. 'I’m far more feeling-centred,' she said. 'I just go, OK, what do I feel here? I’ll give it a go. It throws people because they think I’ll be far more measured.' She added that she has had to adapt to an unexpected path, acknowledging, 'I didn’t expect this. I had a different view of what my life was going to be, but this is what it is now.'
Kidman also revisited her first marriage to Tom Cruise, which ended in 2001, sharing that she was warned early in their relationship that her career could be overshadowed by his fame. 'I’m like: I don’t care. I’m in love. I want to be married,' she recounted. 'And then I was his wife and they were like: See, we told you.' She dismissed concerns about her career, stating, 'Of course I’ll throw my career away. I don’t care.' Kidman and Cruise adopted two children during their marriage, Bella, 33, and Connor, 31.
In discussing her future, Kidman expressed a commitment to staying open to new possibilities, saying, 'I’ve always wanted to live a well-examined life—trying things, making mistakes, failing, getting back up, moving on, embracing love, staying open, keeping the heart open and the possibilities.' She described the period following her divorce as a time of adjustment, noting there was a point where she felt 'very fearful and deeply vulnerable,' but ultimately chose to move forward with hope.
Kidman also revealed plans to become a death doula, a role that involves supporting individuals nearing the end of life. 'It may sound a little weird,' she acknowledged, but emphasized her desire to approach the experience with an open heart.
The interview provides a rare glimpse into Kidman’s personal reflections on love, loss, and resilience, framed by her characteristic emphasis on emotional authenticity.